Of Life’s Experiences

I used to have a belief that no person must try to hide their weaknesses. They should actually bring out their weaknesses to light and work on them rather than getting defensive. This is a positive belief, I know. But my opinions about it have changed quite a lot. Especially after the kind of people I’ve met lately. Choose friends wisely they say. I couldn’t have learnt this lesson any better. My aunt had told me, “You will meet a few friends in life who will be with you in thick and thin and will teach you what true friendship is all about. But to recognise such people, you need to see a little life.” I guess the kind of treachery; backstabbing and abandoning in a lurch were all things I needed to see. And with the kind of belief I then held, I never even hesitated opening up and revealing my weaknesses to treasonous people. I should have known that sometimes it is important to show yourself as stronger than what you actually are to the world to protect yourself. Not everyone tries to help you out with working on the weaknesses. Well, it might sound pessimistic, but I have met people who try to use others’ weaknesses to their advantage. You need to develop a filter to save yourself from such people. Coz expectations hurt the most when they’re not fulfilled. People tend to build expectations and meanwhile fulfil their purpose. And insecurities and fears aren’t meant to be revealed to the world. Not all of them at least and not to everyone also.

Thankfully I do not wait for someone to come to me and fulfil my dreams for me. I have learnt that I have the potential to fulfil my dreams for myself and decorate my own soul for myself. Yes, my heart skips a beat every now and then at the sound of any appealing opportunity. I let it dream. That’s one luxury I don’t forbid it from. But after it has had enough of its euphoria, I make sure I calm my senses and see to it that both the sides of the coin have been observed. To grow to be a woman, I’ve realised I need to nourish the child inside me. And only a fool would want to live in the glory of the past, ignoring the present. A woman with grace is what I dream to be. And what sometimes is a child’s grief can beautifully be masked by a woman’s grace. I pray I realise my destiny soon.